没关系……

我最近很忙，没错…可是有时候last minute改变主意也不一定啊……最后还是赶不及回来芙蓉帮宝莹庆祝生日，我也不知道你们玩到几点，就没联络你们…没关系的…反正我有没有出席也无所谓，你们开心就好…少一个我，也没什么大不了的…还有哦…宝莹小姐，生日快乐…祝你身体健康，天天开心…很抱歉，没法出席你的生日会…突然改变主意要回来芙蓉，那里只有我一个人，好可怕…当我回到来时，都已经十二点了，赶不及出席…看了他们帮你庆祝生日的照片，你一定感动shi了~ 总而言之，你们开心就好啦~~我没关系的，虽然心里有些难过……唉…功课忙，没办法啊…有机会的话，下次再约我吧…^^

Had a crush on someone I shouldn't have crushed on

     During degree life, I never know that things happen so abruptly... Chasing by assignments, rejected artworks dumped back to us, redoing assignments again and again, wondering what is our status for our marks... However, the worst thing is not only the stated incident, it is the most ridiculous situation I ever fall on --- letting myself have a crush on a person whom I shouldn't have crushed on. Seriously, I have to change this bad habit ASAP, falling in love with someone so easily, just because that person treats me extra good than others! And some more I already had a boyfriend a.k.a. husband!!! 

     His name shall not be told in this post... 

     He is gentle, humorous, optimistic, understanding yet serious.. A 21 year-old like him had the most childish personality but somehow his mature opinion and actions may have attract a lot of attentions from the females. He is not really a fashionable type, but likes to style his hair. He said that, if he doesn't want to style his hair for a day, he'll certainly wouldn't get use to it. Some more he doesn't look good without his hair styled.. I laughed when he told me like that. He has plans to do things but sometimes he does his work last minutely, makes me worry a lot.. These few days, I'll always stick with him wherever he wants to go. But of course, to avoid being suspected, I can't follow him all the time. 

    From that day I started to follow his tail to everywhere, my intuition tells me that : you're in love with him.

I ignored my intuition's words and continued living my life, as usual but also unusual.. Weird, right.. haha..

I guess my course-mates will find that I'm acting weird, because I talk to him more than talk to them and always stand by his side.... 

   Is not that I'm in love with him, I just have some feelings for him only.. "Some", okay..? Never think that I'll begin to have feelings for him just because he's a good guy that treats me good and incidentally fetch me back home?? OH PLEASE! I really can't have feelings for him, seriously... But I do have feelings for him... Since I know that he likes a girl who is a beauty and intelligent, then I have no worries... Sometimes I feel grieved, because he always follow the girl like the way I follow him... Silly me... I shouldn't have feelings for him, but I... *Sigh*

Stressed Out Life During Degree

我好久才更新一次哦。。这几个月不知道自己怎么了，本来好好的，在degree life还没开始之前都好好的。。可是不知道为何，才上了Beta year,就有很多事发生了，我的生活就因此而改变。就在7月头，从那时候开始，当有些事发生时，我就忍不住哭出来了。那种感觉不好受，总而言之就一定要哭出来，我就哭了整一个月多。。每一天都在流泪，不管是功课关系也好，友情，爱情或亲情也好，当某些不开心的事一发生，我的泪水就会开始不停流下。。遇到一个最难的决定，就是选择不要他。。那时候我哭了很久很久，我该不该留下他。。最后还是狠下心做了这个决定。。。而现在，使被功课压力压到不停流泪，那块大石一天不除掉，往后会慢慢从小石头再次变成大石头。。我被这块巨大的石头，压倒快要透不过气，好像要一刀了断算了，搞到我天天都在哭。。可恶啊！！！！！！ 我好讨厌做不完的功课，讨厌半途而废的人，讨厌我自己这么的弱，芝麻绿豆的小事都要哭得稀里哗啦的，讨厌自己每次都last minute work，讨厌自己这么孩子气。。。*狂哭中* 我真的不想要哭成这样的啊。。可是总是会忍不住。。讨厌啦。。！！*别在激动了，纸巾快给你用完了。。本人：闭嘴啦！* 我不想要drop subject。。。TT 真的不想要。。。谁可以帮我。。。？帮帮我。。。拜托。。。

还在咳嗽却在写部落格的本大爷。。（本大爷是你叫的吗！？

真糟糕。。。我的病刚刚才好，又要做大忙人了。。我不是个爱做功课的人，可是这关系到我的未来，不做不行啊啊啊啊~~~~！！可恶！*猛打桌子中* （众：冷静点啊！
可是最可怜的还是我的宝贝老公，一个人要写1000++的字。。辛苦你了，老公~~老婆爱你哦~~ （喂！中糖尿病了啦！！）这两个星期以来，我什么东西也没帮忙分担，就让他们做，真的觉得自己很衰。。。唉，我病掉的那段时间就只是躺在床上睡、睡、睡，一整天都在睡，什么都不用做，也很懒得去做。。是不是很坏勒？神马都没有做，就等他们做算了。。。（衰爆！
可是我也不想啊。。病到好像彩虹一样，吃了药就想睡，哪有那个精神去做。。？现在啊，还是不能吃喜欢吃的东西，还在咳嗽的我就干脆闭上眼当看不到那些正在我眼前飞过的零食。。。呜~~~~气死我了！！为神马啊啊啊！！！？*暴走中

18 september........

It's been so hard that time and I thought I would collapse if I couldn't make it, but fortunately... My darling gave me a warm hug, wiping my tears and comforted me...... Thank you, my darling.... You knew that I'd been crying for a whole night to complete your design... I tried to wake you up, but you wouldn't open your eyes 'cause you're exhausted after doing your sketches.... But when you found out that I was struggling between our assignments, you wouldn't stop apologizing..... You held me tight in your arms and started to sob because you felt so sorry that you couldn't wake up to complete your work by yourself.... I swore I had to finish our work before dawn, I must complete it even I'm tired, even I'm sleepy, even there was no time left. But then, we had done it together..... Thank God..... We still have time to hand it to our lecturer.... Right after we hand it to her, I felt that the stress had vanished from my mind...........     
                                                                                                                       —— 18 September 2011