Had a crush on someone I shouldn't have crushed on

     During degree life, I never know that things happen so abruptly... Chasing by assignments, rejected artworks dumped back to us, redoing assignments again and again, wondering what is our status for our marks... However, the worst thing is not only the stated incident, it is the most ridiculous situation I ever fall on --- letting myself have a crush on a person whom I shouldn't have crushed on. Seriously, I have to change this bad habit ASAP, falling in love with someone so easily, just because that person treats me extra good than others! And some more I already had a boyfriend a.k.a. husband!!! 

     His name shall not be told in this post... 

     He is gentle, humorous, optimistic, understanding yet serious.. A 21 year-old like him had the most childish personality but somehow his mature opinion and actions may have attract a lot of attentions from the females. He is not really a fashionable type, but likes to style his hair. He said that, if he doesn't want to style his hair for a day, he'll certainly wouldn't get use to it. Some more he doesn't look good without his hair styled.. I laughed when he told me like that. He has plans to do things but sometimes he does his work last minutely, makes me worry a lot.. These few days, I'll always stick with him wherever he wants to go. But of course, to avoid being suspected, I can't follow him all the time. 

    From that day I started to follow his tail to everywhere, my intuition tells me that : you're in love with him.

I ignored my intuition's words and continued living my life, as usual but also unusual.. Weird, right.. haha..

I guess my course-mates will find that I'm acting weird, because I talk to him more than talk to them and always stand by his side.... 

   Is not that I'm in love with him, I just have some feelings for him only.. "Some", okay..? Never think that I'll begin to have feelings for him just because he's a good guy that treats me good and incidentally fetch me back home?? OH PLEASE! I really can't have feelings for him, seriously... But I do have feelings for him... Since I know that he likes a girl who is a beauty and intelligent, then I have no worries... Sometimes I feel grieved, because he always follow the girl like the way I follow him... Silly me... I shouldn't have feelings for him, but I... *Sigh*